So, I’ve always been a person that loves quiet nature, untouched, greenery, maybe a small lake, where you can hear the birds chirp and the bugs hiss, not sure why! It’s just me I guess.
Turning 23!!! Those little glittery stars are my hopes and dreams, sprinkling them all into the universe so that the may someday be, with faith ofcourse, loads of it! Ahhhhhhhhh , so this is what I want to write,okay,here we go... I wanna say what I feel this very moment, firstly, very anxious, I don't know why, not bad anxious, just anxious.I don't really like being centre of attention and I feel awkward when people come to make a big deal about my birthday, I am actually away from home, I am an Au pair in America, have been for the passed 20 months now, did I mention this in my "about me" section of my blog? I don't think so, anyways last year my wonderful host family threw me a party and it was great, it was awesome there was a really beautiful cake and we sang and there were candles of course, but this year I just don't know, I don't want anything, oh my gosh , is 23 the beginning of my not being excited for birthdays anymore??? I'm too old, I'm too far! I want fun and happiness and cheerr!! Anyways I feel awkward and probably will until my birthday comes and goes, I just don't want people to think that I want anything!!!! I just don't want anyone to think I'm "expecting" something ya know, anyways I'm turning 23 in less than 24 hours and this is me, here, talking to my blog, feeling anxious. (maybe a little bit excited, but shhh don't tell anyone) No idea where exactly my life is going *sigh* but I'm not worried. I'm just living each day as it comes, also on a side note, with my life so far I've come to notice that there always seems to be another door, another stepping stone to step on, so I'm gonna give credit to the Man upstairs for that. Happy birthday to me! Maybe 23 is where it all kicks off, right? Hahah Finally finding love, getting the job of my dreams.. But.... I'll keep you updated. Let's get this ball rolling! ~Z