So.. my birthday party happened and it wasn’t nearly as awkward as I thought it would be, infact it was pretty special. My host mom, as always, went all out with the cake. It .Was. Gorgeous. Real Pinterest style! *heart eyes*

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It was a purple theme, I’ve always liked that color, my friends were there, the kids were there, we laughed and they sang Happy Birthday, it was really lovely.

I don’t know if its because I’m getting older, but, this birthday really meant a lot to me, I realized how many people actually care about me, everyone I’ve been away from back home and the new people in my life. People go out of their way to give me the best day. All of the wishes that everybody sent to me were really touching, I always cry on my birthday because people say the most wonderful things. Usually I am so awful about taking compliments about myself and wonder why people actually love me HAHA , my bestie says I’m ‘so mean to myself’ but on my birthday is the only day I believe all the nice things people say because they all describe me in the same sweet ways, isn’t that weird. It’s the  consistency that lets me thing hmmmm, maybe I am those things LOLZ, Buuuuut  on a real note it helps me believe and think about myself in a more positive way, makes sense? I love my life right now, I am so grateful, I am blessed with so much love and support, my entire life has been this way and continues to be, as I grow in my life I still meet AHHHMAZING people and I LOVE  every single one of them!



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IMG_0365 Turning 23!!! 
Those little glittery stars are my hopes and dreams, sprinkling them all into the universe so that the may someday be, with faith ofcourse, loads of it! 

Ahhhhhhhhh , so this is what I want to write,okay,here we go... I wanna say what I feel this very moment, firstly, very anxious, I don't know why, not bad anxious, just anxious.I don't really like being centre of attention and I feel awkward when people come to make a big deal about my birthday, I am actually away from home, I am an Au pair in America, have been for the passed 20 months now, did I mention this in my "about me" section of my blog? I don't think so, anyways last year my wonderful host family threw me a party and it was great, it was awesome there was a really beautiful cake and we sang and there were candles of course, but this year I just don't know, I don't want anything, oh my gosh , is 23 the beginning of my not being excited for birthdays anymore??? I'm too old, I'm too far! I want fun and happiness and cheerr!!
Anyways I feel awkward and probably will until my birthday comes and goes, I just don't want people to think that I want anything!!!! I just don't want anyone to think I'm "expecting" something ya know, anyways I'm turning 23 in less than 24 hours and this is me, here, talking to my blog, feeling anxious. (maybe a little bit excited, but shhh don't tell anyone)
No idea where exactly my life is going *sigh* but I'm not worried. I'm just living each day as it comes, also on a side note, with my life so far I've come to notice that there always seems to be another door, another stepping stone to step on, so I'm gonna give credit to the Man upstairs for that. 
Happy birthday to me! 
Maybe 23 is where it all kicks off, right? Hahah 
Finally finding love, getting the job of my dreams.. 
But.... I'll keep you updated. Let's get this ball rolling! 


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